on hearing God

so, in the past week i can very distinctly hearing (or seeing, or learning from, however you wnat to put it) God in 2 different situations. i want to share those here...

first, one morning i was outside with my son, mazerick, how is 3. we were all bundled up and standing on the street corner. there was snow everywhere. he was in an awesome mood. he was so happy. he stood on the corner with me... our road is fairly busy... and whenever he saw a car he waved, expecting them to wave in return. when the person in the car waved back he was ecstatic. the thing is though... he was expecting them to wave back. there were a few times that the person did not see him, or he waved to late.... it was only in those situations that the person did not wave back. how can someone resist a totally cute 3 year old waving ecstatically? seriously:) anyway, God spoke to me through that. it was kind of like he was saying... "when you get that excited to hang out with me... or to hear me... how can i not smile? how can i not come to you?" hmmmmmm... just my thoughts.

another was on christmas eve... my husband, son, and myself took some donuts to my grandmas assisted living place. i took some into the nursing home part. while i was there i saw the old guy... nearly 100, in his wheelchair rolling by an old lady... (not to uncommon for a nursing home)... but he said to her... "move over, beautiful... it's christmas!" it was SO cute.... and God spoke to me through that too. he said to me... "it doesn't matter where you are at in life... it makes no difference.... you have the ability to make someone smiile." hmmmmm... just some more of my thoughts...

be blessed.

sanity

The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four Americans is suffering from some form of mental illness. Think of your three best friends. If they're okay, then it's you."

• Rita Mae Brown

laughs

i LOVE to laugh.

hahahahaha. (long and loud and clear)

so, i love to laugh. sometimes i do things that i think are funny.... and they would be funny to middle schoolers, but sometimes i guess they are not funny to the general public. my bad. that's why i LOVE middle schoolers. i tell people.... "i learned everything i needed to know in middle school." it's not really true, and i definitely wouldn't want to go back and relive those days, but i do still have that humor. sorry. it's just true. i don't want to hurt people. i'm a real people pleaser. but, man... i just love to laugh. so, have a laugh with me. try it. you'll feel younger. for real.

one thing i do not want is to hurt you with my words. so please.... if i do hurt you with my words.... punch me in the throat. no, for real doe.... punch me hard. okay, maybe not.... but yeah.... i try to laugh in love. so, try it on for size. laugh in love. good times.

pizza for breakfast

Mazerick and I went to "The Wooden Peel" for dinner last night. Naturally, we had leftover pizza for breakfast. Following is our conversation...

Me: Pizza for breakfast? The Peel is the best!
Maz: Daddy says the peel is lame.
Me: Daddy needs Jesus.
Maz: Lame.

And, we continue eating our pizza.... mmmmmm, mmmmmmm, good.

vivid random memories and chai tea

no... my memories have nothing to do with chai tea. however, i am drinking chai tea. and, i am having memories.... memories from the past... that have nothing to do with anything. just thoughts of rememberance.

i was in 7th grade. i went to lunch at school, and sat with the same friend that i'd been best friends with for years. she said on this particular day, "i'm sorry. that seat is taken." and that was it. that was the end of our friendship. pretty stupid how things can be so petty, and yet so drastically change peoples lives all at the same time. it was that same day that another kid, who seemed to be kind of a loner, said... "you can sit with me." and then it was just an unspoken thing from there... i was then best friends with him. we hung out all of the time. called each other on the phone. complained about being treated like crap from certain people. i went to his house. he came to mine. one day he asked me to be his girlfriend. i said no. he's gay now. that sucks. he's still a great person though. love him. anywho. that's it for that memory.

this chai tea is really good. i just noticed there are 2 transactions on my bank account that are online transactions that i have no clue where they came from... time to investigate. have a wonderful day!

disclaimer: this blog was pretty random and uneventful i realize, but i was due.

the day after...2 days after:)

This year the week of Thanksgiving was great. It began at my moms.... that was last Sunday. And Saturday I was reunited with an old friend. A game called Loser/Idiot. I had learned this game while in YWAM, but had since forgotten it. I'm so glad to be reunited! Thanks Brian and Jenna! Anywho... so Sunday we went to my moms for Thanksgiving, as her and my amazing step-dad left for Branson on Tuesday to be with other family. It was a good time... unfortunately Bruce and Anna were neither feeling well, so after dinner they slept... but, that's part of Thanksgiving right? Right. Michael was in the computer room, watching tv. The kids were downstairs. I LOVE that I can let him play downstairs, and not have to worry! And, my mom, brother and I played Loser! Good times. And the food was great too! Then on Thursday we went to Michaels moms, ate, sat on the couch watched football (boring), and relaxed all afternoon. And then yesterday Michael went back to work. Yesterday and today have been a bit lonely, but I put of the tree and the stockings... and we filled Maz's stocking with match-box cars! And then yesterday... he got into it! He only pulled one car out though... so, he doesn't know it's FULL of them. Anyway, Michael said... we told you to wait and not look yet. Maybe we should give all of your other presents in your stocking away. And then we proceeded to tell him that if he looked again we would give everything away. And Maz cried in time out :(

And then this morning... Maz got up and said, "Is it Christmas?!" And I said, "No. Christmas is coming." When I went to take a shower I was a bit worried that he would look again. So I said... what happens if you look in your stocking, Maz? He gave his typical response... I dunno. I said, We will give all of your presents away. He said... That would be sad. I don't want that to happen. and the day was good :)

thanksgiving time again...

i have a great thanksgiving time story. it happened to one of my friends from ywam (youth with a mission). i was in denver ywam in 2000. the thanksgiving after the year i was in here's what happened....

my friend, katie, was in a safeway. (that's the stores that they have a lot of places.. it was a few days before thanksgiving. katie was walking around the store minding her own business when she noticed a very conspicuous rather large black woman walking down the aisle. she just happened to follow this lady out of safeway. the manager of the store noticed this lady... she was nearly waddling, but you could totally tell she was trying to get away with something. there wasn't much proof though. so, my friend katie follows her out of the store. about 10 feet from the entrance a 10 pound ham falls out of this ladies shirt... and the lady yells, "fo real do, who phrew dat ham at me!?" so now, at the most opportune times myself, or one of my friends that's heard this story... will randomly yell out, "fo real do, who phrew dat ham at me!?"

good times. hope everyone has a blessed ham this thanksgiving :)

God-friends...

I've got some good friends... and I've got some God-friends... I MISS Caleb and Angela SOOOOOOOO bad. I do. I texted my friend Jenna today and said, "I need a cigarette and a beer." And, I don't drink! Or smoke! Sometimes you just get stressed, ya know? It's not typical that I get stressed. But, sometimes.... it just happens. After I texted that to Jenna I prayed a bit... I said, "God! What do you want of me here? Should I go after this job? It is stressing me!" I heard, "Go for it, but don't stress over it. I want you to be happy with life. If you get it, you get it. If you don't you don't. Be happy in ME." So, here I am.... happy in Jesus. But, totally thankful for my God-friends. There are some people that I really want to hang out with more. Some that I LOVE hanging out with. Well, actually... I don't hang out with people if I don't want to:) But, there are people that I wish I was with more... like Caleb and Angela! Oh, how I miss them! I was thinking of them today, and wallowing in my misery, when Angela called! Yay! A phone call from Angela! So, I said to her... if Michael and I die I want you to take Maz. Sure, it's random, but it's just a fact of life. I told her they would also have to live in our house so that he could be close to family :) Not that we're planning on dying, but what if? Anyway, she asked Caleb what he wanted for his birthday, and he said... "I want to play double-bid with Michael and Melissa." Ugh. I wish. I told them they need to move back. Time will tell. I'm glad they are in Colorado though. It's a great place.... FOR NOW... then my freaking phone died. ANGER!

Anywho... I'm so glad that Tara talked about God-friends yesterday. It brought a lot of people to mind. Love you everyone!

good times

so, today at bk. we're sitting in the kids play area. i'm online and maz is back and forth from playing and the table. he comes to the table and asks to go out for a crown. at first i say no. then he gives me these puppy-dog-i'm-so-cute-how-can-you-deny-me-eyes and says... pelleeeease. and i'm like, sure. go ahead. and he says... clear as day.... "ARE YOU SAYING I'M FAT?!" oh my gosh. this kid is hilarious!

everything

i know what it is to be in need, and i know what it is to have plenty. i have learned the secret to being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want..... philippians 4:12

I feel like I can relate with Paul, who was the author of the above. I have never really been without, when it comes to food, but I have been in want. I mean sure I've been hungry before, but I don't think that really means I was without. It just means that we might not have what I want at the moment. It's not like I'm going without though.

This verse is kind of where I'm living right now. God told me... very clearly.... that I should not work. Sometimes God tells his people to do things that seem pretty outrageous. Seriously, why would someone that was getting an income not get that income anymore? Especially in this economy. It doesn't make a lot of sense. But, we're trusting. And, that's exactly where I think God wants us right now. Just in a place where we trust fully in him. Fully.

And, it's kind of fun. An adventure.

people... and coffee houses

people at coffee houses shouldn't be so loud. i understand it's a social place... so, i'm not really talking about people that go to coffee houses to be social. be social. it's cool. but if you work at a coffee house.. don't be so noisy. come on. seriously. and leave your drama at home. i don't care if your bank account got messed up and you were late paying the rent. i don't care if your boyfriend is being stupid. i don't care. i love you, but i don't care.

my oh so amazing husband is "leading" our class tonight. he will be facilitating for the song of solomon class that we are assisting. should be fun. unfortunately, the stinking devil knows it and is attacking. the jerk. anywho... God is still good. God is still on his throne. i am happy.

my life is good. i am blessed. listening to God. gonna read messy spirituality. excited. gonna live it. good times.

things

i love...

1. people

2. wooden peel pizza

3. kids

4. facebook

5. slippers

6. hoodies

7. the colors yellow and orange

8. bonfires

9. hugs (this is new for me)

10. staying at home (mom)

11. going out to eat

12. reading

13. fall

14. music

15. hardwood floors

16. nice carpet

17. food

18. clean houses

19. people to clean my house :)

20. Jesus

21. my laptop

22. worship

23. people that give me money

24. tennis

25. mexican food after tennis:)

26. conversations

27. mountain dew

28. games

29. cards

30. laughter

i hate

1. expectations (others and my own)

2. depression

3. cars

4. lifetime t.v.

5. affairs

6. guilt

7. bad costumer service

8. this economy

9. lying politicians (i guess i didn't really have to preface that)

10. lists

11. cleaning

12. dresses (on me)

13. dressing up (except for occasionally maybe on dates)

14. judgmental people (am i being judgmental by hating judgmentals?)

15. addictions

16. shoes that are too small

17. liver and onions

18. satan

19. the dark

20. the HOT

21. the COLD (can't it be fall all year round?)

22. abuse

23. an itch that you can't reach

24. fried xbox 360s

25. apathy

26. uptightness

27. having sick family

28. diet pop

29. friends living FAR AWAY... like colorado:(

30. hospitals

what do you love? what do you hate?

responsibility... what's that?

we are all responsible for our own actions and words. can we be responsible for others?

definitions

what defines you? what do you enjoy? what makes you laugh? if you had to describe yourself in one word what would it be?

hmmmmm..... what defines me? well, i'm pretty sure Jesus defines me. what the heck does that mean? it means that he's why i do things. i laugh because he's given me joy and freedom. i feel happy because he's blessed me. i feel sad for others/or myself because they are going through hard or sad things and Jesus has given me compassion. i love because Jesus has given me a heart to love others.

what makes me laugh? people. myself. my kid. good food. television. words. movies. my husband. being tickled. blogs. my mom. hogface. good stories. tennis. ugly dogs. cute dogs. dead cats. books. kids.

speaking of tennis one of my friends last night said... "you play tennis? i didn't peg you as the athletic type." well, my friend, let me tell you... you don't really have to be athletic to play tennis. well, not really. i mean, you kind of do. i played tennis in high school (for a year) i played softball growing up. so, if that makes me athletic i guess i am:) but in general, i wouldn't put myself in that category.

if i had to describe myself in one word.... hmmmm.. relaxed.

that's me. what about you?

my life... in words...(long blog, beware)

born~december 25th, 1979

... before i was born my brother was born. when my mom was prego with him the dr. found out that my dad had a congenital heart defect.... (that means he was born with it, and it could be hereditary... or something like that). anywho, the dr. suggested to my parents that they abort him and not have any children because his life wasn't going to be full. my parents were like no way, and that's how i came about. so, i was born, and i would say my life was freaking awesome. my mom and dad loved each other. they loved us.

life was good. my dad was sick, but as i mentioned before, he never complained. caleb and i were in a bunch of sports, bowled on saturdays, went to breakfast on fridays at the corner cafe with dad, went on family vacations... just good times in general were had by all.

september, 1987 or 8 (can't figure it out right now)~i was hit by a car. put into an immediate coma. drs. said there was no way i would live, and if i did i would be a vegetable. i was in intensive care... in a coma for 5 weeks and stayed in the hospital for 3 months i believe. had speech therapy, physical therapy, and occupational therapy. had to learn everything over. passed with my second grade class... thanks to linda huff... she's awesome. well, i'm alive. and, i'm not a vegetable...while i was in the hospital my dad had a stroke and ended up in intensive care. my brother was failing the 4th grade (but got through it). anyway, needless to say, mom had her hands full:) i came out of the hospital and did therapy for a long time after... don't remember how long. but a long time.

oh yeah... in september (on the same day i got hit 10 years earlier) my mom hit and killed a little amish boy.... a horrible accident. but, i can't even imagine what she went through when she found out that i was hit that day.

sometime in 5th grade~dad had a stroke. caleb and i walked home with one of my friends that day. we saw dad on the chair, and he couldn't say anything to us. we didn't know what was going on. eventually we called my friends mom, and she ended up getting a hold of my mom and dad went to the hospital and came back from it. even though the drs. said it wouldn't happen.

you see... our family like to prove the drs wrong.

7th grade~pastor joe came to the school to pick up my brother and i. we knew something was wrong. dad was in the hospital again. i figured he'd come out like he had previously. i love him. i love Jesus. i was in quizzing at church. we had a tournament this same weekend in canada. i figured there was nothing i could do here so i went to canada with my quiz team. my uncle (dads brother) came along in case dad dies while we're in canada. so, i had a good time in canada, but was a little distracted. to say the least. there was this one time that our quiz coach was called out in the middle of a quiz and we were all freaking out... then she came back to tell us her daughter wasn't feeling well. what a stinker. anyway, we got through the weekend. had a good time. on the way home the van broke down in flint, michigan... it was sunday night at like midnight. my uncle had to get back for work on monday so my friend and i rode with him. my dad died the next morning.

i felt like i did a pretty good job grieving through all of this... while i missed my dad i chose to accept that he was in a better place. i did try to fill that father hole with other people... good relationships. got close to my mom. got close to my brother.

senior year~went camping with some close friends.... my friend bekah told me i was like the israelite children and was looking for a dad... God continued providing father figures for me... but what i didn't get until then was the God wanted to fill that hole. and i finally got that. that is one of those moments that i will NEVER forget. one of those defining moments in my faith, and for who i am.

throughout my youth i sought God, served God, served people, loved people...

graduated high school in 1998. had some really close friends. very relational. but... pretty legalistic.

oh yeah... i failed to mention that i didn't have a lot of emotions growing up either because of the traumatic head injury that i had when hit by the car...

anywho... went to bethel in 98. good times.

went to ywam (youth with a mission) in 2000. hated it for about 3 weeks. couldn't stand being away from family and friends. i had these great friends at the time... i had just begun forming a relationship with them in the years before that... (the lengachers) anyway, jamie prayed that i would be stretched... that my heart would stretch... dude, let me tell you. i was done stretching by the end of the 18 hour car ride... but jamie (and many others i'm sure) wasn't done praying... so i continued being stretched. it was really good for me. God is good. i'm not interested in sharing specifics here, but yeah... God is good. i learned a lot. funny thing about it too. i had never watched r rated movies before ywam. you see... i was legalistic. ywam helped me break out of that mold. not completely, but it was a start. i began watching movies not for their rating.. but just because. anyway. yeah.

came back and finished college. got a boyfriend... (who now is my best friend, confidante, lover) actually got the boyfriend my senior year... my grades showed it too:) i still graduated though. got a job at family and childrens center working with at risk 9-13 year olds. love that age.... love, love, love it. quit there. went to work at bashor where i could share my faith. that was cool. built some really really good relationships there. a lot of down times.... but even more up times. worked with 9-18 year old kiddos there. a few weeks ago... God released me... and my husband from me working. as a matter of fact... God said. STOP working. Stay HOME with your boy. Raise him up in the way he should go. and, here i am ... blogging :)

terms of endearment...

everyone has them. ours are just a little odd. my favorite is HOGFACE. if i ever call you a hogface, know that it's because i like you:) here's my little story about hogface and it's origination. i'm sure some people tell the story better, as it is second hand to me, and if you are one of those people... feel free. but here's the version that i remember...

my husband has a friend, who has a friend, who has a friend... or something like that. anyway, this guy (we'll call him Mark) counseled at a camp. Mark has a little boy in his cabin with some mental um.... how do you say it... instabilities... or something like that. anyway, this boy (we'll call him Charles) goes around to all the girls calling them hogface. Mark discretely pulls Charles aside and says, "hey buddy. it's not nice to call people hogface. we don't call our friends hogface. we don't make friends by calling them hogface.. etc." and charles says he'll stop. so, the next day while hanging out with the other kids charles walks up to all the girls that he's been calling hogface before and says... "i'm sorry. i'm sorry. not a jerk. still friends. still friends. HOGFACE." and it's done in the most loving way. so, now it's just one of those special names. ya know?:) hope you have a special name for those special people in your life.

official. still. feeling blessed.

i love my life. God is good. my family is fun. all is right with the world. i've been reading a lot of fiction lately. i've most recently read some books by kathy herman... i think that's her name. they were good books. about how God is in control... no matter what. there were characters in these books that were struggling with the things of life. nothing to major... well, they were major, but when you put your life in Gods hands it just makes things easier. He is in control. He has a purpose for EVERY person... no matter what. whether we raise kids that end up making horrible decisions, lose a child at a way to young age, have a child kidnapped, lose a best friend, it is easier if we just trust God. yeah... we may get mad at God... and i think that's okay... as long as we don't hold it in and talk to everyone except for God about it. He knows anyway. i guess what i'm saying is... I'm glad i've got God. i can't imagine life without him. it's also a little easier for me because it's really just easy for me in general to trust God... He has blessed me with an immense faith. it's easy for me to believe. i don't have a lot of questions. i'm really easy going. i think part of it is that my dad died when i was 13. the way he raised me.... along with my mom... was an easy going raising i guess you could say. they loved me immensely. they were the best parents a kid could ask for... i never worried about being loved. there are things in life that happened that were hard, but with Jesus we could get through it. and that's what i was taught... from an early age. my dad was sick his whole life... but never complained. i'm pretty sure i've adopted his attitude about life. i'm not sick (thank God), but he was so easy going about everything. i'm lucky. God has blessed me with the heart of my dad. those of you that know my dad now how blessed i was... and am... to have all those memories.. yeah, it sucks that he's not here now... but even after dad died i still had memories... and a great mom... and a great brother... and eventually my mom remarried a great man. so, yeah... i've had tons of blessings in my life... in spite of all of the trials... God is good. and i love him. guess i'm just happy about that today:)

money

so, i quit my job because i felt like God wanted me to stay home with Maz. i had a strong sense that he really wanted me to quit. i'm still sure it's what he wanted me to do. but, not having the extra income is really hard. i keep trying to figure out how to make money. and yesterday, as i was talking about looking for a job michael said, "why are you looking for a job?" and i said... "to make money. that's it." and he said, "don't make an ishmael of it." i didn't really get it. he explained... abraham tried to do it on his own, the whole having kids thing... and he began having sex with his concubines... or servants... to get pregnant so he and sarah could have a child..even though God had specifically told them to WAIT because God said that Sarah would get pregnant... abraham and sarah thought it would be a better idea to do it there way. and ishmael was born... he lived in the wilderness with a wild and hostile attitude towards people... so yeah um... i'm not taking things in my own hands. i'm letting God have control. i will stay home with maz like he told me to. i will follow God and seek him. i will trust him and have faith in him. he told me to stay home with maz. i will do it. i will make our family a better one by doing so. God will provide for us:) it is just scary sometimes:) i'm glad to have an awesome supportive husband and great friends. thank you, God.

par-tay!!!

so, yeah... yesteday i went to a surprise party for jenna, and it was great. to see the look on jennas face when she came in was priceless. kendra did a great job hostessing. brian did a great job keepin jenna in the dark. and everyone did a great job keeping it a secret. it was good times.

maz said, "party harty" before we got there. he was excited. when he got there he said, "is this party for me?"

and i've decided that should be my philosophy on life. every time something good happens, i should celebrate. today has been a not so good day for me. i went to church... put my happy face on... was nice... loved people... cause that's what i do... but just not really feelin good about myself. ya know? do you ever get like that?

i must admit. sometimes my self esteem or self worth...just not so good. it's unfortunate. i've got an awesome family, awesome friends, and God really provides for me. but sometimes i just feel like dirt. yep. that's about it.

God is good. he'll get me through.

today.

so, maz is at my mom-in-laws... michael and i both slept until 9:30 today. it was great. i took a shower, and came to the coffee shop... michael was watching bob ross and said he'd be here when it was over... that was an hour ago. weird. anyway, God is so good. I am laughing a lot today. Just thinking...

And, I've not gotten any further in the book "the final quest" but i think i'm gonna put it down for while. i got what i needed to. it's an intense book. i am gonna pick back up the book "only a woman" by terri mcfadden. i picked it up about a year ago, and never finished it... i thinnk that'll be my book like that for a while.

i'm big into fiction, but that's another story.

Anyway... God is good. I love him.... a lot! I'll post again soon:) I've got a lot on my mind, but need to wait to share it:)

catching up.... good stuff

man. a lot to catch up on. last night was m&m wars. it was totally awesome and fun. 14 kids showed up and we had a great time. i got to throw m&m's at kids... good times. it was like capture the flag. each person got one m&m and had to get it in their opponents basket without gettin tapped. if they got tapped they had to give the other person their candy and then come get another one from me. they had to do something silly to get one, but after a while i ran out of silly things to do so i just started throwing m&m's at them. good times:)

oh... and yesterday i had my hair in one of those messy buns... and mazerick was laughing hysterically at me saying... MOM, YOU'RE HAIR! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.... the little terd. he was like, I can fix it mom. he kept laughing until i made it into a regular pony tail:)

so, i've been reading the final quest by rick joyner... it's a great book. but it's way deep. i mean i've been reading it for 2 weeks and on page 22. i can only read so much before i have to stop.

here's the first entry from my journal on it... it's just a precursor for where the book goes...

... my goal. pray... ponder... listen... write... respond...

prophecy and visions-something that is seen with "the eyes of our heart."

the more the "eyes of our heart" are opened, as Paul prayed in Eph. 1:18, the more powerful and useful these can be. (prophecies and visions)

Every scripture is taken from the NASV... because that's the only version I could find in my house not on the computer:)

Eph. 1:18; having the eyes of your heart enlightened, that you may know what is the hope to which he has called you, what are the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints.

the anointing of the holy spirit-a conscious sense of the presence of the Lord, which gives special illumination to our minds.
for joyner, iit often comes when he's writing or speaking... gives him greater confidence in the importance or accuracy of what he is saying.
when does it come for me?

a higher level of vision is what joyner calls "open visions" which is more than just an impression-it's external, viewed with the precision and clarity of a movie screen.

a trance-acts 22; saul became paul, blinded. woke in a trance, saw Jesus. it's like dreaming whenn you are awake.. you don't just see the movie, you feel like you are in it.

the visions contained in this book all began with a dream. the overwhelmin majority was recieved in some level of trance.

states emphatically-NO PROPHETIC REVELATION IS FOR THE PURPOSE OF ESTABLISHING DOCTRINE. WE HAVE SCRIPTURES FOR THAT!

2 basic uses for the prophetic:
...revealing the present or future strategic will of the Lord in certain matters.
...illuminating doctrine that is taught in the scriptures, but is not clearly seen.

"REMEMBER, ONLY SCRIPTURES DESERVE TO BE INFALLIBLE."

Part One...
The Hordes of Hell are Marching....

randomness...

first, to pose a question. is it a bad teaching moment when sitting on the front porch with my 3 year old we are waving at all the people that go by... and when some older people drive by and don't wave back i say, "crazy old people!"? it was fun though.

2 of my friends to note are doing something that i find pretty cool. they are reading through a nonfiction book, whichever they choose at the time, that is uplifting and teaching. novel idea huh? but the catcher is this. they read one chapter a day, and they dwell on it... some people call it "devotions." i have realized recently that the reason i don't do "devotions" is because i don't want to. yep. so, i think i'd like to start doing this same thing only not call it "devotions." no strings attached. we'll see if i can be comitted to it.

wow. i'm sitting here thinking, and looking back on my recent writings and deciding "these writing suck." so, to have a topic. that may make this a little more interesting. or not. we shall see. i'm definitely not going to be like julie in julie and julia and blog about what i cook. though that movie did make me really want to cook. so much for that though. today i reheated pasta. i don't think that counts. and i put some chicken in the crockpot. don't think that counts either.

maz. now there's a subject to blog on. but i don't think he will be the subject of my blogs. how much i love people? a bit too general i think. books? i love them, but don't think people would want to hear my opinions. who knows? jon and kate? ugh. they make me sick! but not them either. makes me mad though. i used to really like that show. so much so that i bought their first season on dvd. now what do i do?!

so... God told me to quit working where i work. guess i should quit already. i've been telling people that i am staying at home, but when people call me i take the shifts because we need money. i am crazy. yep. that pretty much sums it up. quit already girl! quit! quit! quit!

i hate that my son like barbies and pink. on that note. i'll be done for now.

to join the blogosphere...

i would love to join this blogosphere, but i would also just love to have somewhere to laugh, vent, cry, or do whatever i please. and this is it...

today i am laughing.

my son is funny. i would love to quote him. below are numerous quotes (some with explanations, others not.)

responding to me saying, "hey maz, say super cala fragalistic expialadocious."

*that's lame

a few minutes after i have said "there are no options. we're taking naps."

*there are no options. we're staying up.

i asked maz what he wanted for breakfast...

*ummmm, how about macaroni on the cob.

while jumping on the trampoline...

*hey mom! check me out! i can do jumping jakes!

i'm staying at home a lot more than i used to. we're feeling led that i should maybe be a stay at home mom. we're at least feeling like i should get out of this abusive relationship that i've had with my current employer for the past 3 years. who knows. we do need the money. God help us! so, since i've been staying home with maz more lately i've noticed how much funny stuff he says. and, i'm loving it! so, alas, here i will remember it.