Tuesday, April 19, 2011

what God says

   Love never gives up. 
   Love cares more for others than for self. 
   Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. 
   Love doesn't strut, 
   Doesn't have a swelled head, 
   Doesn't force itself on others, 
   Isn't always "me first," 
   Doesn't fly off the handle, 
   Doesn't keep score of the sins of others, 
   Doesn't revel when others grovel, 
   Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, 
   Puts up with anything, 
   Trusts God always, 
   Always looks for the best, 
   Never looks back, 
   But keeps going to the end.
     Love never dies.

So true.  Funny thing.  I want to be loving, and I read this passage to know better how I can be loving.  And, I've expressed that my mind wanders.  It's true.  Well, here's where it wandered to tonight after I read this passage on "how I can be more loving".... I thought, hmmmm... interesting, nowhere in that passage does it say, "LOVE WINS."  I just found that funny :)  

Okay, well.... here's where I'm at with the whole LOVE issue...

  I will NOT give up!

  I will care for others more than myself... no matter how many times I hear, see, or read that I must love myself first!

  I will not want what I do not have! (yikes, that's a tough one)

   I will not strut!

    I will not let my head get swollen with pride!
I won't force myself on others!

    I won't be, "me first!"

    I won't fly off the handle!
 I won't keep score of your sins!
I won't get excited when you mess up!  (that's kind of hard for me too)

   I will take pleasure when I hear truth!
I will put up with anything!  (really, anything, God?)  ANYTHING!

   I will always trust God!  

   I will always look for the best!

   I will not look back!

  I will keep going to the end!

   I will not die!  (well, I will... but my legacy of love won't)

And that, my friends... is where I'm at...or at least striving to be at :)

Wednesday, April 6, 2011


Most of us have a void in our life.  I know that I do.  I'm not sure what the void is, but I know it's there.  I am in general a pretty happy person.  It's my personality to want to be on the go, doing something productive, or at least entertaining, all of the time.  As I was laying here at 9:00 on a Wednesday evening I was thinking to myself, "Why am I just laying here?  Isn't there something I could be doing?"  I know, for some people they would think, "man... it's time to sleep."   But, in my world sleep is not needed right now.  It's just not.  Today was productive, and here's where I see a void in my life.  I got up, hung out with a really good friend that I haven't seen in a long time, and let my kiddo play to his hearts content at Bremen Bounce while I chatted with this old friend.  Then I took my son to see grandma great who lives in the nursing home.  We enjoy stopping in just to say hi and take her on a walk.  I walked into her room, and she was sitting with her back to us, looking out the window.  I whistled upon entrance because that is a fairly regular greeting in our family...  I said, "hey grandma.  how are you?"  She said, "Mean."  I walked around so she could see who was there and asked her again.  Again, she replied, "Mean."  Then I prompted my son to come all the way in and give grandma a hug.  He did, and her entire countenance changed.  She went from "mean" to "thrilled."  Anyway, we proceeded to go on a walk, because that is Maz's favorite thing to do when we visit her.  We dropped her off in the dining room and left to go meet snuggles grandma for lunch.  We had a grand time at lunch and then Maz went home with grandma for 2 days.  I decide I need to take advantage of the time that I have when he is not with me and drive to the movie theatre.  I watched a good movie, talked to a good friend in California, and came home.  We had people over to play a game tonight, and it was fun.  And, then I come in to lie down and am trying to find something to do.  Something to fill this void.  But, really... why must I fill a void?  What is the void?  Why can't I just relax and be content that my day was good?  It was good, and I've been feeling pretty good this last week (mentally and emotionally that is..  physically, not so much, but what do ya do?)  So, I decided to blog.... after googling, "filling a void" and browsed a bit.  I found it interesting that blogging in itself is filling a void.... at least that was someone elses opinion.

I want to be so full of Jesus that I don't feel any void at all.  Is that possible?  Or will there always be something?  Any thoughts?