but... today i just stopped for a bit in this beautiful weather and said, "God, what do you want of me? What are you trying to do IN me?" and i waited. i just listened.
it was good. i came away from it remembering that God put me where i am right now... at home full time with mazerick. and, one thing i've really been learning from that... about who God is and who i am... is that my lifes purpose is not to DO great things for God, but to BE a great person, inside. God made me who i am, and He doesn't expect me to do, do, do. *except when i've got to go to the bathroom*
so anyway, that's where i'm at. i am excited about what God is doing through me, but more important i am excited about what God is doing in me. i am excited about how i am coming to rely upon him, and how i am learning to slow down. i am learning that he loves me for who i am... not for what i do. the rest is just a benefit :)